Happy Three Month Bwenda <3 these were just some songs that reminded me of you SO much! I want you to know that I will always be here for you, You'll always have a shoulder to cry on, or somebody to talk to. I won't be as pushy as I was, but if you ever want to talk, I want to be the first person you turn to. Stay Strong, don't get too Stressed about Finals week, AND DON"T WORRY ABOUT ME tehe :)

tonight I was thinking about every thing that was happening in my life, and I couldn't help but cry thinking about my life without you. i think i do a really shitty job at showing you how much I actually care. I want to change that, I've been trying to think of ways to get back to what we had. the only way i came up with was this. I have to stop taking everything so personally. You've told me before, but it just sorta clicked. But at the  same time, I need you to understand my position. I am not very good at the whole dating thing, but I try so so hard to keep what we have. Over the last few months I've always kept thinking that I have to be the perfect boyfriend for you. But I think while trying to doing so, I've lost who I really was. You fell in love with Noah and now your dating a stressed out, fuck-up of a boyfriend. Today I just didn't know how to handle everything that was going on. So I secluded myself. You know what I did that hour? I went to a bathroom stall and sat there. Just sat, and tried to think and straighten out all my thoughts. I'll alwasy want to be with you. But i'm willing to do whatever to try and fix things. Whatever solution you have, I'll give 110% at correcting things. Whatever happens, I want you to know that you're everything to me. I picked this song because it reminded me of singing it in your car with you! <3

Possibly the most dramatic Boyfriend you've ever had,

Noah

So i am really confused so i turned to blogging tonight (get ready) haha

Anyways, I just wanted to let you know that no matter what happens, I'll still love you. It makes me so mad at myself when you say you don't trust me enough to believe me when I say that, but goodness it's true. I want to satay with you so badly and I already told you i'm committing myself to getting our relationship to what it once was. I don't expect us to last forever, but now wasn't the time for us to part. At this point in my life, I need you. You've been a blessing in my life since the day we met and I want there to be many more days with you beside me. Before you, my life was so boring and normal. You give me a reason to wake up in the morning and I get excited on days when I see you! I've probably already told you this over the phone by the time you read this, but I'm willing to take a break if that's what you think will solve this. If you realize that you need me as much as i need you over that break, I will be right here waiting for you to come back. But I dont kow if i want to take a break because I can't stand the thought of losing you. I'm just so scared that if we do take a break that you will realize you like it better without me in your life. I screwed up in our relationship, if I could go back now, things would be so much different. But I can't , we just have realize that its a Brand New Day. From here on out I will look upon every opportunity with you to prove that I'm here to stay. Besides, a new outlook on the world around us can change everything. I put the second song in here because I heard it on Pandora and it changed how I saw today. At first i saw today as the gloomiest day in a while because we were having trouble, but now I see it was a rough patch that could possibly make our relationship grow closer together. Tomorrow, if we are both happy to see each other, and make the most of every moment together, who knows what could happen? It's just my theory that could possibly save what we have, i'm going to try it out i just encourage you to do it with me. Anyways, I just had a lot to say tonight and couldn't figure out how.

                                                     Love,
                                                     Noah

Brenna, I am so thankful for you! god did give me you and everyday we are together I'm thankful you came into my life. I'm here for you through the up's and the down's in your life and our relationship in general. I just was trying to figure out a way to show you just how thankful I am for you, and this song came to mind.
Love,
Noah

I Know I will have to work my ass off to gain your trust back, but I eventually want our relationship to be how it was when you trusted me. We hung out every opportunity and we loved every minute. When we are together and you sit on the other couch, or act like you don't want me there, it kills me. Sheridan was wrong, I have my priorities in line, and your the one on top. I wrote this tonight because I never know how to react after we have a bad night. I just got so used to having nothing but good things happen when I was with you. I should probably get to sleep.... it's 3:48 a.m. But I want you to know, if you never trust me again, i will always love you with all my heart, and always want to be your number one man. <3
I love her to death
And mean every word
I hope she would trust me
And not what she's heard
I would give her the world
And everything in it
I wanted her heart
But she made me win it
I lost her trust
And I need it back
I know I deserve it
Cause it was truth that I lack
Without her in my life
My life would be black
Love is the answer
To all of life's questions
Through my love for her
I've learned my lessons

I know I got mad at you for a stupid reason, but every time I feel something like that it's just because I like you so much and I want the opportunity to show you that. When stupid things like this happen, it's always been because i had a bad day and needed you as a pick-me-up. I couldn't fall asleep tonight because I was thinking about what would happen if I ever lost you. Your probably the best thing in my life now, and I hate fighting with you. We don't fight a lot, but i don't want to fight at all. I'm sorry I wasn't open about what I was upset about. I hope now you can see how frustrating it is when you won't open up either. I'm sorry for every thing <3

(I picked this song because i just feel like everything around me can slip away when we are together, like I don't have to worry about anything but you. <3)
Hey Cutie, I have something to say, but thought it would easier to blog it then to tell you tonight. I was extremely stressed today and I'm glad I got to see you! I'm sorry if you get annoyed with me, i tend to ask the same thing a lot. But I just fell like I have the responsibility to lift you up whenever your feeling mad, or sad. I feel like I have to keep asking you those questions so that I am always on top of picking you back up. But the more I think about it, I can't help but think that I was the one annoying you. So I i'm sitting here trying to figure out what to say next, and I've got it, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that i keep asking the same questions over and over. I'm sorry that all I want to do is make sure that your okay and cheerful. I just feel like on a day where everything seems to be going wrong for me, I want everything to be going right for you.

Every time we are together I can feel your love around me. No matter how manly your voice gets when your sick, or how moody you can be, I want to give you the same amount of love that you've given me for the past couple weeks. I don't mind if you don't like to call it love, that's fine. But to me, love is any form of affection. But when I tell you I love everything about you, I really do. From your singing voice, to the way you smile at me when your embarrassed, It's amazing to me that I can call a girl as awesome as you my girlfriend. I will never take you for granted. I Promise <3

I don't plan on breaking your heart, but I think this song has more meaning than just that. It's a song to remind you that I'm always here for you. I'm always your rock, and... I may not fight FOR you, (haha) but I will always fight WITH you. <3 you can always count on me :)

Every night I don't get to spend with you, I consider a bad night. I'm glad we spent as much time together as we did today... I just generally love being around you, I didn't tell you but I was actually having a really bad day until I saw you! <3

Spending Time With you is like finding a Great Wiggie!!!!! <3 always by your side.

DON'T BE LIKE JAKE! just tell me how you feel and I will help, I know that i may not know everything about you, and you may not want me to know everything about you. But i do want you to be honest and open with me. It hurts my heart to see you when your sad. I just want to hold you and never have you go back to what is making you feel this way. But i do want you to know, i Will be right beside you throguh this battle and won't leave your side!!!!! <3

Brenna, I know that we haven't been dating for a long time, but so far, its the happiest I've have been in a while. YOUR AMAZING! when I tell you that I used to think that you were the sophomore girl who was always out of my league, its true! your amazing, inside and out. You have the prettiest face I've ever seen! :) Nicest Body ;) but overall just awesome to be around. I know you think your eyes are ugly but i LOVE your eyes. They aren't grey either, your eyes are big, blue and gorgeous!!!! I don't know if you will think this is weird, but i really love the way you smell, haha! But when you fall in love with a person, you fall in love with a personality as well. Your So fun to be around! Even if you run off into the bathroom and then go talk to your sophomore friends, i still like being around you! I like you for who you are. haha (now is when you should watch the "one Direction" song because I think you're beautiful) :)!!!!

I figured this video would cheer you up because I do not truly know what love is, yet the feelings i have for you are nothing I've had before. <3

I thought you would like some roses.... but I dont have any to give you... will a virtual rose work?

This song cheers me up EVERYTIME i'm feeling down in the dirttt.... maybe it will work with you too :)

if i ever do something bad or weird... at least I'm not this bad :)