Anyways, I just wanted to let you know that no matter what happens, I'll still love you. It makes me so mad at myself when you say you don't trust me enough to believe me when I say that, but goodness it's true. I want to satay with you so badly and I already told you i'm committing myself to getting our relationship to what it once was. I don't expect us to last forever, but now wasn't the time for us to part. At this point in my life, I need you. You've been a blessing in my life since the day we met and I want there to be many more days with you beside me. Before you, my life was so boring and normal. You give me a reason to wake up in the morning and I get excited on days when I see you! I've probably already told you this over the phone by the time you read this, but I'm willing to take a break if that's what you think will solve this. If you realize that you need me as much as i need you over that break, I will be right here waiting for you to come back. But I dont kow if i want to take a break because I can't stand the thought of losing you. I'm just so scared that if we do take a break that you will realize you like it better without me in your life. I screwed up in our relationship, if I could go back now, things would be so much different. But I can't , we just have realize that its a Brand New Day. From here on out I will look upon every opportunity with you to prove that I'm here to stay. Besides, a new outlook on the world around us can change everything. I put the second song in here because I heard it on Pandora and it changed how I saw today. At first i saw today as the gloomiest day in a while because we were having trouble, but now I see it was a rough patch that could possibly make our relationship grow closer together. Tomorrow, if we are both happy to see each other, and make the most of every moment together, who knows what could happen? It's just my theory that could possibly save what we have, i'm going to try it out i just encourage you to do it with me. Anyways, I just had a lot to say tonight and couldn't figure out how.
Love,
Noah
