Sometimes I don't even know why I like you, but I do. and I just can't seem to stop
some how, other people's songs seem to sum up exactly how I feel about you B.... and when I say other people, Ben Rector is what I mean. ha

Hey Bwenda. I figured this was the best place to try and comfort you. For over a year now, I've have been in love with you. It's never been about anything more than you. You're just an amazing girl. You wanna know what I think about when you ask me what I'm thinking of? Im thinking of all the amazing times I had with you. I think back to why I fell in love with you. You make me happy Brenna! Happier than anybody else. When I fell in love with you, I fell in love with you and who you are before I ever fell in love with your body. I don't want to chase you off because of what happened tonight. Ya we took things too fast, but lets just back pedal. Watching tv with you is some of the best times I've had. You're a sweet girl and I hate seeing you sad. I'm hoping we can continue what we had going before tonight. You mean the world to me. And I wouldn't want this to change the way you feel about me

This song sums up everything between us haha maybe one day you'll get lonely and come on here, but I doubt you'll see this anytime soon, maybe things will have changed by then.

Don't know why I love you

HEY! it's been a while since I've been on here! haha I heard this song on pandora and it really reminded me of you haha mostly because the title reminds me of your eyes!! well, I'll make this short, I miss you Bwendaa. I always think about you on the days leading up to prom now, there isn't a single person i would rather go with then you. But it doesn't matter. I hope everything is good in your life! i doubt you'll ever check this stupid old place again haha. Maybe sometime soon we will talk again, I hope you miss me too!

I would swim with the sharks, 

With no cage or no suit;

I would jump out a plane, 

Lacking only a chute;

I would wrestle a gator, 

In the swamps of Sarasota;

Or conquer the cold, 

In the alps of Europa;

I would cut off a finger,

Better yet make it two;

Because there isn't a thing,

That  I wouldn't do... For you

Boxing Day
Ill fight and fight until the very end,
I fight for you to whom this letter I send;
After the days of you,
My heart need to be sewn;
Yet I dream of the days
when I called you my own;
I told you how I felt,
Wore my heart on my sleeve;
But you still walked out,
Couldn't wait to leave.
Now I want you back,
Girlfriend or not,
Cause I'm the only guy you'll find
Who thinks you're more then just hot.

The Big Bad Wolf
There on the floor lay my walls,
I tore them down for you;
I tried to keep them up,
but you blew and you blew;
I gave you my heart,
I gave you my all;
Now look what became,
Now look at my wall;
Lying in shambles,
Stand again it must;
But for now they sit,
Alone in the dust;
My walls have crumbled,
I sit here so blue
Regret, I have none,
For now I've met you.

Hey again! I dont really know why I'm writing this, I'm 100,000,00% positive that you don't check this anymore. But I guess I'm just writing in order to.... get it off my chest. I Miss you, A LOT. Haha I'm coming into this with an open mind that our friendship will work. But I want nothing more than to be in your basement watching Gossip Girl with you. I HATE GOSSIP GIRL ha but I was with you, and extremely happy. I've come to terms with the way our relationship is going, and I've actually become really happy lately. I started looking at the positives in life. I'M SINGLE! haha that's what most people tell me the biggest positive of everything that has happened was. But I don't agree. I would rather be with you than just hooking up with random girls. If you ever do see this, I can't tell you where we will be in live, or if I'll be in your life at all. But one thing that I can always predict is that if a second chance with you popped up. I would be all over it. I think tonight i was just really missing you because you said you were watching T.V. ha I just thought about the times when you were bored and would call me and we would just sit there... and makeout. We did do that a lot, probably too much haha! But I think that's the thing holding me back from moving on. We have soooooo sooo many good memories with each other, I just wanted to make more. I don't want to be forgotten by you. If you ever do come around and for some reason miss me. Just tell me. You'll make me the happiest man in the world. I understand you need time, and actually want to move on. tell your family Hi for me when you read this, and.... if you do end up reading this, text me, tell me what you think. I'll be happy to talk.

Dear Brenna,

I’m sorry about the way I’ve handled everything in the last few weeks. It was extremely selfish and immature of me to expect you understand my situation. Two weeks ago my life felt like it was over. I had a lot go wrong for me in the weeks before we ended it but I didn’t tell you because I knew our relationship was coming to an end. I didn’t want you to stay with me out of pity. In the week after we broke up, Nothing got better, the semester ended and almost made things worse. I felt like I had nothing going for me. In my lowest point, I desperately tried to find something positive in my life, and just couldn’t. In my head I thought if I got you back, maybe things would start to look up. It was stupid, I didn’t take your feelings into consideration. But when I left for Maryland, Everything started to turn around. My life started to regain the purpose that It once posessed. I had a plan to just stick with my friends and not look for a serious relationship. New Years Eve when I saw you I was extremely excited, but when everybody but Kizsla told me about you and him, I felt betrayed. I didn’t know how to handle myself. I wasn’t mentally prepared to see you with anybody else. When I told jade, I wasn’t telling her to put you down in anyway. I’m sorry if it seemed like that, I just didn’t know what to do. It just hurt to know I was struggling with moving on from you, and you weren’t. I felt like our relationship didn’t mean anything to you.  After you texted me that long message when you went to lunch with your friends, all I could think about was you and Graham. I remembered you talking about how weird of a boyfriend he was (haha) and couldn’t help but think I was possibly worse. But then I started to think about how you two don’t really talk anymore, I don’t want that. I want you close to me no matter what. Maybe you were right by saying I need a little time, but I feel like such a douche when my friends make plans to hangout with you girls, and then cancel them because they’re with me and your with Haley and Kaytee. At this point, I’m afraid that if we don’t talk, then we will never be friends again. I’m just now starting to understand that you’ve moved on and if I don’t do the same I’ll slip back into the emptiness I felt before. I want to be your friend more than anything. I actually couldn’t see us recovering from something like this and getting back together. I remember in the first few weeks we were dating, I told you I wanted to always be your number one guy and you wanted to always be my number one girl, and then we pinky promised it haha but I’m holding my end of the bargain up. I want to be your friend, if you think things would be awkward if we started now that’s fine.  But I’ll always be here for you.

From,

Noah

(P.S. I don’t know if you’ll ever see this because I wanted to give you space from me, so I decided not to tell you it was here. But if you’re ever feeling alone, pull this blog up and read through it. I’ll always be with you, you can always talk to me about anything... even if that isn't your strong point)